love~hope~wishes

2010-02-16T01:51:00.002+08:00

its nw consider the 3th day of new year!!=)

firstly, thanks babes and baby for all the birthday celebrations and surprises.. love all of you! really enjoyed my birthday tis year=)

but, my new year was kind of boring as compared to the past few years..didn really pay visit to many places as dad dun feel like going this year.. on the second day, went to cher's hse in the evening but left quite shortly after..den went to baby's hse tgt with his friends for steamboat..initially i was in kind of good mood when im at cher's hse..but i dunno y, gradually my mood swing jux came suddenly out of no reason, thus i didn really chat much with baby's friends while eating and his friends were saying how cum i moody.. i dunno hw to reply them cox i dunno y too..hmmm, went home and my family was playing 21, so i join them and in the end i lost $80! =( it seems to be when a person is in a lousy mood, everything else would jux turns out to be unlucky=(

wateva it is, the 3rd day of new year will be better for me right=) i will go to xia, cass and bea's hse lata today and hopefully my mood swing will disappear after i wake up lata=) nites ppl, loves!

2010-02-10T00:02:00.005+08:00

my work at the aia requires me to have a english name.. so people, help me think of some suggestions=)

and and and, chinese new year is coming which means MY BIRTHDAY IS AROUND THE CORNER!!! haha.. people, dun forget to wish me ar, if nt u gonna be so dead! LOL

lastly, can someone volunteer to help me change my blog template??? been too lazy to do anything..and i'll love you deep deep too! hahahaha

2010-01-06T01:30:00.001+08:00

i know this is random, but BABY, I LOVE YOU!!! GIRLS, I LOVE YOUR TOO!!! wahahahas..

2009-12-29T02:38:00.000+08:00

i just dun belong there anymore..

2009-12-23T00:37:00.002+08:00

finally have some time with my family on mon night..after mum and dad got back from work.. after dinner, dad went online to QQ, its a china's type of msn.. webcam with my uncle(dad's bro) and he was carrying ya lan (uncle's youngest daughter) she's only 1yr+ old, so the last time i went back to china, she's not born yet and guess wats the first sentence she said to me :姐姐，回来吃饭... when i hear this, my heart totally melt..i almost cry out, but i had to hold back my tears..den i realise, i miss them so much and i really wish i can fly back immediately.. nth much means more den blood ties..

if only we live in the same country, how wonderful will tat be..we can always visit each another during any special occasions or when ever we wanna meet up, we can easily know how they are doing and help each other in times of need, 爷爷，婶婶 and me will be able to celebrate our birthday tgt every year.. sometimes i really envy you all to be able to meet up with yr cousins and go out..for me, tat will only happen once in a few years.. maybe i didn really have alot of chance to meet up with my relatives, tats y i cherish them even more..

i miss them..really miss them...

2009-12-08T23:36:00.002+08:00

yeah!!! i scored a B for my UT(test) for tourism and travel practises=) haha..didn expect me to score a B for this test cox i didn answer a few ques and didnt manage to complete my answers for some ques as well.. somemore im not the only one complaining that there's too many ques lor.. i thought i gonna score quite badly for this test cox for my sch, thr's no more moderation! but heng ar=) didnt study for nth!!=) haha but but but, the results for my arts management test sure CHUI one..even though i havent get back the results, but im prepared in getting lousy grades for this test.. forget it, i shall work harder for my other test to pull up the grade=)

thank god!=)

2009-12-04T23:25:00.002+08:00

in the past, everytime when i start work, i look most forward to the time when i end work, where i can go and rest and do my stuff. but now, things are different, i look most forward to meeting u after work even though we might have met in the morning..tats y when i know u overslept again, i feel kind of disappointed. my brain tells me to be angry with u, but my heart knows that u overslept because u're really tired after work and u always didnt have enough slp and when u overslept, at least you have more time to rest.. so how do you expect me to react when i know that u are nt coming because of overslept again..hmm..watever!

2009-12-02T22:44:00.002+08:00

some things is better to be left unsaid.. i know u are very protective of me and doesnt really like my hang out with my guy friends, thats y ever since we are tgt, in one way or another, i didnt really meet up with them much, or rather up till now i haven been meeting anyone of them...i didnt want u to be unhappy, upset or worry thats y i decide nt to do the things u dun like..but sometimes, being too overprotective makes me feel... its in yr character, i know it long ago, thats y even before we were tgt, i make clear of my stand to avoid any further arguments over this matter but stil, its of no use...

2009-10-31T01:34:00.002+08:00

every little things that you do shows exactly how much u dote on me=) thanks baby for everything!

2009-10-26T22:56:00.002+08:00

i knew it, everytime when im happy with what i have now, theres bound to be smt that stop me from it and tis time round its my parents..i told you this is to gain yr understanding, and let you know whats happening around me, but yet your............ i can only say i've done wrong by telling your about it, i shd have kept it as a secret like what i always do...

2009-10-26T11:29:00.002+08:00

i've been more and more lazy recently! getting lazier to go sch even though its jus 2 days a week..lazier to work, lazier to do anything!=( finally manage to tell mummy about being tgt with baby..and she was shock..haha.. and we didn intend to tel dad for the time being=)

2009-10-15T02:19:00.002+08:00

out of nowhere, im going to genting this fri and will be coming back on sun!!=) hahas..super last min and random.. but b4 going there, baby already tell me so many negative things about goin, which makes me rather stay in singapore, but mummy buy the travel ticket le.. hmmm..hopefully things aint as bad as wat he say! =)

travel travel travel, seems to be the things i've been doing recently=) travel= vomit! cause im sure gonna vomit through the journey and medication doesnt works on me! =(

2009-10-12T00:27:00.003+08:00

so many things went through my mind when im all alone..tinking of the past and present..the things tat once made my heart smile and the things tat hurt me deeply.. the happy times and the sad things tat ever happen.. all in all, im glad with what i have now, im contented with the ppl ard me=) everyone of your means so much to me even though i dont really say it out...

on a random note, girl u better study hard for yr A levels and we shall meet up more when yr A levels are over!=) u know i'll always be waiting for yr call to hear yr updates! ^_^

2009-10-04T22:14:00.002+08:00

yeah, i'll be going thailand in a few hrs time!! but but but, im somehow nt in the holiday kind of mood..as in im not really excited about it..anywae my study days are out! i only need to study on mon and fri!!!wth..i seriously dread studying on mon most lor! =(

gonna miss baby for the nxt 1 week! =)

2009-09-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

have been quite busy lately, so didn really blog much..anywae, in exactly 2 weeks later at this point of time, i would be in thailand already=) hahahahahas..suddenly, im going overseas again! yeah! this time would be going with my mum and a grp of family friends=)
nxt, in nov, i'll be going to china for my cousin's wedding!

anywae,my trip to tioman was quite fun, but more of relaxing type, and guess wat, i saw andy lau=) hahahas, he was playing volley ball with his grp of friends! the worse part of this trip was i vomitted during snorkling and that place got a lot of big fish lor. so when i vomit, all the fish came near me and eat my vomit! scare the hell out of me! luckily baby quicky swim over to help me=)

having chalet tml till thus! shall blog more when i come back=)

2009-09-13T00:32:00.002+08:00

yes, im finally going to tioman in 2 days time!!!=) hahahahas..hopefully i wun be chao ta back! LOL

2009-09-05T02:46:00.000+08:00

for that moment when i know tat u are really angry with me, i was so afraid to lose a friend like you..within my large group of friends, u are the little few tat i really care about and never wan to lose..but luckily we manage to open our hearts and talk about it..
gal, i just wanna let you know that i really treasure our friendship and i will nt let anything come between us, i will keep the promise tat i have made to you! =)

2009-09-04T12:54:00.000+08:00

i know it may sound rather random, but im now tgt with leonard le=) and i hope this would be different...

2009-08-29T22:51:00.002+08:00

haiz..its sat night, and im suppose to meet wei xian go out after work..but i work at great world city today, and dad work opp me! but i thought he was off from work long ago..until 9.30 he called and ask if i end work already..den i know he was waiting to send me home tgt! so there goes my outing with wei xian..opps, sorry! and now im stuck at home! cant go out=(

yeah...im so excited for my tioman trip!!!=) its gonna be fun!

2009-08-27T13:10:00.003+08:00

im back from chalet!!=) its fun and also crazy at the first night! hahas..shall not elaborate much on wat we did..everything shall be kept within tat night..and now, i shall go for my beauty slp!

2009-08-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

yeah, i've got all my chalet list plan out!
25 -27 aug: chalet with the girls
29 aug: eliza's bdae
22-24 sept: with vivian that clique=)
9 oct: kai ling's bdae!
javier and ray's chalet which they haven confirm the date yet!
wahahahas..just looking at the chalets, already make me feel excited! lol and im going to tioman this sept holiday! from 14 to 17sept!!! yeah=) and to china on nov for my cousin's wedding!

2009-08-17T00:25:00.000+08:00

anywae, most of yr out there shd have receive my msg about stealing day and what would you steal from me..i really got some funny and sweet ans from my friends=)most of them say wanna steal my heart and my "erm" nt convenient to say here and the rest are the more different replies
zo: steal my pretty girlfriend number from me (you already got a pretty gf here! and its me!lol)
andy: steal my laughter cox it makes him feel happy
daniel: steal my money cox he now no money! (dam realistic! hahas)
bea: steal away my unhappiness so that i will always be happy(sweet of her right)
shifu: steal away my leg so tat i cannot run away from him!(i never intend to run away=)hahas)
i was smiling at my phone when i c some replies lor..and my colleague give me a weird look! but who cares=)

2009-08-16T23:48:00.000+08:00

everything goes wrong on sat for me!!! work at taka and was expecting to be able to sell more den any other roadshows like the past 2 years of taka fair..instead, i didn even manage to sell a single thing! the whole taka was so quiet the whole day the atrium poplulation is 1/4 customers and 3/4 staff! how to sell like tat!! followed by i drop my blusher, den the whole thing came out..so have to buy a new one=( and the worse is, at night after work, meet jess and kailing to go out..take car from daddy, but when i tried to unlock the car using the remote, it doesnt have the "beep beep" and i try a few times still cannot unlock the car..so i went to insert the key into the driver seat and try to unlock it..but, the same thing happens again just like tat time at bea's hse downstairs!!! couldnt unlock the car, and make it worse instead..den finally when press the remote again got the "beep sound already, its too late, cox i went to insert the key before tat! no way i could open the door, call terence and he came over, but he oso cant help much..no choice but to call the locksmith den he came down and unlock the car for me at $50!!!=( cox its midnight already! idiot!!!its the 2nd time this happens bcox of inserting the key into the driver door! i was really f..angry at tat point of time! and i swear i'll never insert the key there again!!!!

anywae, after manage to unlock the car, drive them to jalan kayu for prata followed by marina barrage and send them home=)and and and, i didn sell anything on sun too!=(

2009-08-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

all the while i knew that there is smt wrong with my bro over the girl tat he like..but i didn ask much cox i find it rather sentitive and he would tell me if he wanted to, just like i know i wun tell him much about sin how.. but tis few days, he keep telling me say he very sad and i knew it was over her..finally today, he told me the whole story of what exactly happen between them and what he had done for the girl..he wakes up early in the morning just to accompany the girl to sch and waited for her to end, he makes breakfast for the girl and send it over to her hse..he buy a book that the girl likes and do a aeroplane model and mail it to the girl's hse..but the girl seems to keeping a distance from him now.. no wonder my bro is so sad!=( but now den i realise that i've got such a sweet bro when he comes to relationship! hahas..he's totally different can! and i dunno how to console him, cox i myself cant even handle a relationship well..

on another note, singlehood is NICE=) u can go out with anyone and anywhere without accounting to anyone! =)

2009-08-12T21:48:00.002+08:00

i wanna go try prawning! hahas..have wanted to try that for very long le..but didn have the chance to.. so people, who wanna bring me go prawning??? LOL

2009-08-12T00:02:00.003+08:00

looking at the videos they make for you, tears begin to flow down unknowingly again..i really wish it was just a bad dream..and i would still c u at our HTM class on fri...

2009-08-11T00:13:00.003+08:00

my feelings for you have finally come to a fullstop... and i shall start a new chapter of the stories to come=)

anywae, went to clara's crematorium service today..its really sad at that point of time when we c her being push in.. my regret was not being able to attend sheng yao's crematorium service on sun afternoon despite being much closer to him..and i heard tat ytd sheng yao's one the atmosphere was even worse..everyone began to breakdown one by one..and if i was there, im sure gonna be one of them.. anywae, everything have come to an end..i believe god will take care of them at the other side of the world! =)

2009-08-08T23:16:00.003+08:00

receive a call from zy in the afternoon saying sheng yao and clara past away..i was so shock that i didnt know how to react..i was still in the same class with them a few days ago and chat with sheng yao at fb.. why did all these happen??? how do you expect us to accept the fact tat your are no longer around when everything was still fine when i last saw yr.. the newspaper said tat the commit suicide out of love, all i can say that its all bull shit!!! the both of them would definitely not do this kind of thing..sheng yao is such a cheerful and helpful friend of mine, i rmb there's once where i got to work after sch and will nt be able to do my rj, quiz and evaluation by 2359, thus i ask Sheng Yao for help, and he agreed without any hesitation..i still owe u a drink or a meal my friend and i've yet got the chance to treat you..why did u leave so suddenly..i went to look at clara and sheng yao's fb, so many comments made by the friends who care about u, but what exactly happen to the both of you..i could no longer control my tears while reading the comments made..we all miss your so much!!! rest in peace my dear friends, your will be remembered...

life is so vulnerable issnt it, u never know and can never control what's gonna happen next.. so do treasure the people you love, because you will never know when they will be gone..we always take things for granted towards those people who are close to us, because we would think that they are always there for us when we need them.. given one last chance i would say this to u" sheng yao, im really grateful and thankful that god arrange for you to my friend, a friend tat i treasure and will always be a call away when i need help.. i pray that god will take gd care of u and clara at the other side of the world...

2009-08-07T12:56:00.002+08:00

this is what suyi said "don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened" it just sounds so appealing to the ear issnt it! =)

2009-08-06T23:04:00.003+08:00

im beginning to feel tired, really really tired..i hate the feeling of having one sided love, its tiring! i dunno how long more can my feeling still last, afterall it takes 2 hands to clap..right!

2009-08-05T23:58:00.002+08:00

yeah, my fyp presentation is FINALLY OVER!! hahas..even though i was quite confident about it, but when i was outside the class waiting for our turn, i begin to feel abit scary.. my stupid laptop got the stupid virus at the wrong time lor..so i went to the IT helpdesk before the presentation, den they say need to do quite long, so i went to lend a laptop from the sch, but the laptop battery spoil lah..even though i press on standby or hibernate still will automatically off by itself..so once i unplug the power, everything is gone..and for my presentation we are suppose to move from table to table lor..so the laptop tat i've borrow from the sch becomes REDUNDANT! cox geraldine print out her notes, so she's nt gonna use the laptop during presentation, thus i lend laptop from her..but when i start to use for less den 10mins, the laptop AUTOMATICALLY SHUT DOWN lor..i on it again but her laptop the password got smt wrong lah..den cannot log in! WTF man.. ended up i didn refer to anything throughout.. luckily all the questions asked were still manageable and didn really have to refer to the laptop to answer=) but still, all 3 laptops cock up at such a wrong timing!!!

Every battle is in Your hands for You to fight..believing that he will bring me through all these..

2009-08-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

hmmm, im simply not in any mood to read through my fyp reports when the presentation is just 2 days away! my thoughts are floating somewhere else rather den on my report=( WTH! so people, please pray hard for me that my presentation is going to be fine on wed! hahas..

so many people gonna reach 21 soon, or rather in a years time..sometimes i wish that i've already turn 21 as well=) but i know by then, i would wish that im younger than that! i know im contradicting, but who cares=) LOL

2009-08-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

its sat night=) and here i am staying at home blogging! hahas.. im simply too tired and too lazy to go out today after working at the triathlon..sleep all the way from 3.30pm to 9.30pm=)NICE! hahas..despite sleeping for so long jux now, im starting to feel tired again already..

my tummy hasnt been feeling well since then! =(

2009-07-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

3 girls= 1 market??? hahas..it just sounds so true when me, jess and kai ling are tgt=) LOL..all the nonsense will start!! our topic about "S"! =D

finally met up with cher, cass and bea all together!!! always like miss out one of them de lor..really had a great time with my girls.. we talk about the past when we were in sec sch, about the people that we have not seen for a long long time.. really miss those times, where we have no worries, no heartaches, and studies is the only thing we have to worry about! I WANNA GO BACK TIME!!!

while typing this entry, MY STOMACH IS F..... DAM PAIN!!! its even worse after i visit the toilet!!! wth=(

2009-07-30T00:26:00.002+08:00

so many things i wanted to say..i wanted to say it out loud..but i just dun have that courage.. he looks really ill after the operation..hopefully he will feel better soon..sometimes i wish i am not so stubborn when it comes to relationship..but tats me, huang yaping!

2009-07-28T21:50:00.001+08:00

all i can say is im really sorry towards you, and im glad that you have think it through..

my stiff shoulder is getting worse!!! and im kinda affected by it..now at this age already got tis kind of problem..cant imagine whats gonna happen when i grow older!!=(

2009-07-27T00:28:00.002+08:00

TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO...
why do i still hold on to that little hope that i know its almost impossible to happen..and tat i can feel you are drifting further away from me.. i took so much initiative..but u seems to be always so busy..

2009-07-25T03:09:00.001+08:00

hmmm..im kinda feeling bored with my life now! maybe its time to know more new friends! =)

2009-07-21T00:17:00.001+08:00

u mean so much more after you left me...
if only, if only, if only....

2009-07-19T01:15:00.004+08:00

im really disappointed at the same time angry!!!! i know tat u're nt in any gd mood, but tat doesnt mean tat u can throw yr temper at me! wateva u have told me and didn want to me say it out, i didn tell anyone about it.. i treat u like a very close friend of mine and i really cherish our friendship, but tat doesnt seem to be the same to you..

on a complete different note, bea, im really happy for you knowing that you are finally together with him after such a big round! and i believe that he will treat you well=) all the best in yr new relationship girl=)

2009-07-16T15:14:00.000+08:00

im really feeling very happy now! though im rather tired...hahas=)

2009-07-13T21:53:00.005+08:00

why does my heart still feel so heavy whenever i think about you..my mood will only go DOWN DOWN DOWN=( i dream of him last night, about us getting back together..i was so happy back then, tat i wish i will not wake up..

i miss you so much..so much more..

2009-07-11T02:40:00.002+08:00

after sch on fri, rush home cox guang ming, justin, cher and dorin coming over to pick mi up for dinner=) and after tat we went to the summer breeze at pasir ris park there to chill out and jie sheng came over to join us..den when the 3 guys was away, suddenly got a guy came over to our table, initially i thought it was JS..but it was a complete stranger from the table behind me! he came over on his friend's behalf to ask for my contact no. and say maybe we could go out for coffee or smt.. i rejected, den he ask if i had a bf and i said no..and he continued by asking if IM A LES? which part of me do i look like a LES!!!??? hahas..anywae, this guy is kind of handsome! =) LOL.. but still, i'll never give my contact no. to a complete stranger!

2009-07-08T22:48:00.003+08:00

烦烦烦...i really feel bad about it! =(

but on another note, love is never fair..issnt it?

2009-07-08T02:08:00.002+08:00

finally got to meet up with bea and cher after they came back from overseas..7/7-HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEA=) u know we love u lots! went out in a large grp of gals today to help bea celebrate her bdae, had our dinner at mushroom pot, the one beside centre point! really had alot of craps with the girls whr we bitch about everything and the whole restaurant was like filled with our noise! hahas..

8/7- HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUYI=) the gal i really adore even though we seldom meet up!

2009-07-06T22:55:00.002+08:00

seriously what is happening now, most of the relationships around me seems to having problems, whether issit married or gf and bf..
i really hope tat all relationships can have a happy ending with no one getting hurt..but it will never be possible..

2009-07-06T22:22:00.002+08:00

issit really worth yr effort spending so much time on me when u know i haven get over him? and tat i couldnt make any promise to u at tis point of time..i dun wanna make u feel disappointed..

2009-07-05T02:43:00.001+08:00

well, i really do believe in fate! everything is fated..u can never force something tat is beyond yr control..

2009-07-04T03:22:00.002+08:00

being through difficult times does not necessarily make you go stronger..at least not for me this time round..

im really feeling down now =(

2009-07-02T23:26:00.002+08:00

my tarot card reading-the lovers

Your Tarot reading drew The Lovers card. This card is of good fortune, and show's the beginning of a romance, or the rebirth and growing love of a current relationship. The Romance, harmony, trust, and respect, in this relationship will grow stronger and burn brighter in this unity. Take time to recall this joyous event to strengthen your love in year's to come

really wish tat its true...

2009-07-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

i can feel tat you are somehow avoiding me..

2009-06-29T23:51:00.002+08:00

i tried not to tink about you, but why does it seems so hard? u're the only thing tat came across my mind whenever im alone..i lied to myself, i lied to jess tat all i wanted now was to just be friends with u..but its just so difficult to do it when i havent even get over you, it doesnt seem as easy as what i thought i could handle initially..or issit all the while, i didn want to be just a normal friend of yours...

he's having a exam soon, like 2weeks+ more to go..hope tat he can do well=)

2009-06-29T18:37:00.002+08:00

wow, today on the way to sch notice that there isnt much ppl in the bus and in the sch! cox most of them are home quarantine and the year 1s dun need to come to sch! when i reach the class, the first ting our faci wanted us to do was to go and take a mask to wear lor! wearing the mask jux makes me feel so uncomfortable and everyone else look at u like an alien lah.. everyone in class was discussing about H1N1 and share our unhappiness about the way rp handles things and that includes our faci, she oso very unhappy with rp and she wanted us and our parents to complain lor..hahas..

anywae, my mum called in to MOE to complain about the way rp handles tings den MOE say that it is beyond their means to the way rp handles tings, but how could it be since rp is afterall manage by the government, they say have to call in to the ministry of health because its the MOH pass down the information den they will inform the sch de..so nvm, my mum called MOH instead, and guess what they say, they cannot do anything about rp's sch system, we have to feedback to rp directly. so my mum called rp and complain, say that they shd close the sch since the number of H1N1 cases have already reach 57 and are stil increasing and they say that everything is under the sch's control. so my mum shoot them back by saying if everything is under the school's control then why is the number of cases still increasing and who can guarantee that my child will not be affected and who will be responsible if it really happens.. they couldnt answer my mum lor..and say that they will ask the person in-charge to call back lata..which i tink gonna be tml or even lata lor..since now is already afterwork time and they havent call yet! rp's sch system is really sucky and inefficient! i'll make sure that they give us a satisfied answer!

2009-06-28T22:57:00.001+08:00

i was being too naive about my feelings...

2009-06-28T20:42:00.002+08:00

so many people gettin sick now! zo and an having fever, den somemore my class oso got a few ppl feeling unwell and tat includes the faci! so shouldnt they just close the sch!!! jess and an got home quarantin..=( so when is my turn? hahas..

on a complete diff note, cher is gonna be back nxt sat=) and i shall go airport fetch her! yeah..

"i want nobody nobody but you" this few words of the song keep appearing in my head..it speaks my mind..

2009-06-27T04:40:00.000+08:00

i miss you so much...

2009-06-27T02:27:00.004+08:00

26/6

after sch, rush home to prepare for xiao long's wedding dinner at a restaurant somewhere beside vivo city..andy drive us there! hahas..once again, its great meeting the cliques again=) after the wedding dinner we went to party world at chinatown cox they know the manager there and we got discounts everytime and special treatment! lol.. tis time round they go party world not really for singing lor..but a place for them to continue their drink! hahas..most of the guys went home half drunk.. one ting i like going out with this clique cox most of them really treat me like precious, guess cox im the youngest ba..so they really take gd care of me when im out with them=) shall upload more photo's on facebook when i've got them all!

2009-06-25T14:12:00.002+08:00

went to club with jess they all on wed night when de nxt day i got school lor!!! all of them live at the west side and only me stay at the east! =( luckily leonard send me home even though im the last to reach home and by the time i reach home is already 5am! sleepy....

2009-06-24T15:02:00.010+08:00

its totally over..i promise myself ytd would be the last time i cry over you.. because i've really tried my best to salvage this relationship, so i shall continue to move on without any regrets left.. im really touch by my friends when they heard that i wasnt tgt with you anymore, they really care so much about me, afraid that i'll be hurt. cass, xia, cher, bea keep checking on me to make sure that i feel fine, jess, kai ling were the first to know about it from him, but yet they remain silent and did not ask mi about it cox they know im hurt and did not want to rub in any further. lorenzo called in the morning to comfort me about it and vivan that big group leave me so many comments in my facebook to console me, telling me how much they care about me=) thanks people, i really appreciate it alot! i will grow to become stronger but that was with all yr care and concern=)

没有你，我还是会活的很快乐。而我希望你也能找到属于自己的幸福。。。

hao, its really yr persistent and 'cruelty' that make me face the reality=)
all i hope for now is for us to be back to how we used to be..close friends where we can talk about everything and go out together=) can we?

2009-06-23T22:02:00.002+08:00

from the moment i wake up today, he came to my mind immediately, realizing tat we are no more tgt..i wanted to cry the whole time but i keep holding back my tears..i told myself to be strong like how i appear to be infront of him but when jess and i were talking about him during our break, i couldnt hold back my tears anymore, i couldnt be strong enough like how i hope i would be..

i miss him even more, even much more now..i really dun wan our relationship to end like that..but is there anything else i could possibly do to salvage this relationship?

2009-06-22T17:49:00.003+08:00

why did you say those words out when i was at my happiest moment, when i finally have the courage to tell my parents about our relationship, when i knew that this cuming weekend i wasnt working and was thinkin of where we can go together, when i was happily looking forward to the year end trip to taiwan and hongkong with you and when i begain to fall deeper for you..why did you say it out at this point of time..my heart hurts, it hurts so much..

2009-06-16T22:50:00.009+08:00

work up in the morning and was having a serious backache and sore throat, wanted to skip school so much cox really tired, but got test..so no choice but to drag myself for school.. the backache and sore throat got worse and it make me feel so restless the whole day..after test, went home and found out tat im having a fever! =( but still went out to meet bea, cox haven meet her for very long le, and she's flying to london and paris tmr for holiday! we went for dinner den came over to my hse to slack, mummy ask her to help her buy the LV bag in paris.. enjoy yr trip babe=) and when u come back, its time for bdae celebrations!

how i wish he could just be at my side now, rather den in the far far away china! =(

sore throat+ backache+ headache+ fever!!!=(((

2009-06-15T21:22:00.001+08:00

yeah, dear is coming back in 2 more days!!! but but im working on thus, fri, sat and sun..so can only meet him after work..=)

2009-06-13T02:00:00.003+08:00

working at pc show is dam tiring! i dunno y, even though the working hrs is the same as other roadshows but i just somehow felt more tired den normal.. OTO is just right beside ours which make it very competitive for us..and most of the time when we're nt serving customer, we are pratically staring at each other's roadshows lah! lol

dear say that cheng du is nt nice and infact he feels like coming back already! hahas.. 2more days and my pathetic holiday is OVER! this time round i got to wait for 10 long weeks before my nxt holiday! cant wait for my nxt holiday=)

miss him=)

2009-06-12T00:20:00.002+08:00

dear is going to fly to china later this morning for 6 days!!!=( gonna be bored without him.. but at the same time, hope that he will enjoy his trip there for his bro's wedding! work at PC show today and guess what! my bro is just working just right beside my roadshow for singtel! lol.. and i found out that he is wooing a gal now!! hahas..soon to be girlfriend eh!

2009-06-10T00:28:00.002+08:00

HOW ACCURATE COULD CHER STILL BE!

even though she's nt beside mi now, but she knows exactly how i feel towards him.. a different feeling which i myself dun even know how to phrase it, she knows it exactly! wow!

cass is off to korea now! so mean while, hope tat north korea dun attack south korea now! or after she gets back=) enjoy yr trip babe!

2009-06-08T00:32:00.002+08:00

some feelings just cant be describe through words...

chat with ben for quite some time during working time den i got to know so many things about the people around me..everything i see, everything i know seems to be so surface..i was quite shock by what he told me, at the same time disappointed.. there doesnt seems to be anyone that i can totally trust in work..

2009-06-03T02:06:00.003+08:00

im feeling so down now..or rather the whole day throughout even though i went out with wei xian and wen xia respectively today..
mi and hao, are we going too fast? all these comes about so sudden tat im afraid tat i might lose it soon..i just felt so insecure about the happiness i have now...

2009-05-29T10:46:00.002+08:00

having break now..and after today, its my holiday time!!!=)yeah..cant wait for holidays to come. jess is now in the plane flying off to taiwan..enjoy life lor..hahas.. i oso wanna go holiday with my friends, but doubt my parents will allow!

miss him lots=)

2009-05-27T23:14:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO=)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUEENIE=)
and a few mins more HAPPY BIRTHDAY LORENZO=)
bro and queenie got the same birthday, 27/5 and lorenzo's bdae is 28/5=）went to stay over at queenie's hse ytd as she got a bbq somewhere near her hse..really had so much fun with the cliques.. hao came over after his lesson to meet mi for a while and guess what, when he reach there, my clique start to turn their attention to him lor, and start asking questions..hahas..it was so funny at that point of time lah..but i didn know how to help him ans=) i know he felt abit pai seh but afterall at least he gets to know more about this clique of mine! i wanna let him know all of my friends, so that he knows who im hanging out with..

2009-05-25T23:55:00.001+08:00

hmmm..i dunno how to say it, but im tgt with xing hao le=)

2009-05-25T18:18:00.002+08:00

yeah, one more week and its sch holiday again=) hahas..everytime, i cant wait for the holiday to come lor..gonna have 2 weeks holiday this time..so many ppl going overseas during this time lah..i oso wanna go overseas!!!! tml is queenie's bdae, wed is my bro's bdae and thus is lorenzo's bdae..hahas.. straight in a row..lol. haven been meeting cass much now..she's busy with her sch work..study hard ar gal=) while typing tis entry, im feeling SO HUNGRY! hump..

everytime when i look at other people's wedding photo, im jux so excited about it..and i always wonder when will my day be? 3 yrs later? 5 years later? or even later longer? since young, i wanted to get married early..my dream is to get married and have a kid before im 25=) hahas..i know many ppl find tat its quite early to settle down..but thats my dream..and it never changes.. cass and i made a promise, either of us gets married first, the other one will be the bridesmaid..tats our promise tat i'll never forget=)

2009-05-20T00:50:00.002+08:00

my first UT of this sem! hospitality and tourism management! hahas..do the notes the night before..hopefully can score well for this UT=) after sch, went home den lorenzo came to pick mi up for dinner.. intend to go eat astons de..den zo say cine got..so we went there, but it was not astons, its california steak house, jux beside subway only.. firstly, the service was dam slow! and when the steak we order we wanted medium well, but the steak that they serve us was rather rare, so i requested for them to recook the steak again.. and even after they claim that they have recook, its still de same! somemore de steak doesnt taste tat nice lah! the one at hg plaza is much nicer and cheaper can!!! "bloody hell" so people, dun even bother to try out at the restaurant at all..cos its so not worth it! Zo's sis happens to be at cine too..so after our dinner, zo send her sis and her friends to PS for thier movie den drive mi home=) hahas..he came all the way from jurong to hougang to drive mi to cine for dinner! thx Zo=)

2009-05-13T00:54:00.002+08:00

everyday i waited for you to come online, but whenever u are online, i dunno how to start a conversation with you..im afraid tat you might feel irritated.. if only there's someone who can tell me what to do..

2009-05-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

nearly fall asleep in class today! monday blues..sian! after sch, meet godma and aloysius at hg mall for dinner..den when we about to eat finish, godpa join us=) hahas..its de first time we seat down tgt for dinner..and we shall do it more often nxt time!! didn know what to write for my rj..luckily cass called me at the right time, and she help mi complete my rj=) hahas..

so many ppl's bdae this month lor!!! gonna be super broke le..haiz..

2009-05-10T00:09:00.000+08:00

BORED!!!!
i wanna go out! but here i am stuck at home!!! cox mum and dad dun like me to go out late=( initially was suppose to go powerhouse with jess they all to celebrate the twins bdae..but dunno how to tell mum and dad cox we got cold war until thus..and i dun wanna it to happen again!!!
how i wish there's someone who can call and drive me out now.. even if its just for a short while i'll oso be satisfied..

2009-05-08T00:25:00.000+08:00

all of a sudden feeling so down now..i miss so many people ard me.. cher, faster come back and chat with mi in the middle of the night like what we used to do when everyone is sleeping..

2009-05-05T00:46:00.000+08:00

if only u know how i feel towards you..

2009-05-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

hmmm..didn go to sch today cox when i wake up den heard some rainning sounds, so i told myself if it rains i shall go back to slp! hahas. and yes, its really rainning=) lol..slp until 12+ den was awake by aloysius msg.. went to bath and meet him at town to get mother's day present and we went to watch HORSEMEN! the movie was quite nice but some parts dam disgusting lah!

2009-05-03T23:37:00.000+08:00

hmmm..quarrel with my parents ytd night! =( gonna be a cold war for the past few days..

working at marina fair is fun! cox its a big fair, so i get to c many of the colleagues that i dun usually work with..but at the same time its STRESSFUL when i didn manage to sell lor..haiz..everyone is so hungry for sales at this point of time..

have been hanging out with jess they all quite often, and didn meet up with cass they all instead..so i shall meet them up soon=)

2009-04-29T21:35:00.000+08:00

everything tat happens always seems to be my fault lor! mum is so dam bias lah!!! we are both her children but yet she treated both of us so differently..luckily i stil got dad always siding me=) so i guess its fair afterall huh!

most of my class is really super BORING can! and the classmates are all so competitive lah..so difficult to score in this sem! sian=( can only wait for the nxt sem to arrive soon! and hopefully i can be in the same class with most of my cliques..tats where our nonsense would always start..hahas..

so what if i like him, i guess he just treat me as friends and nothing more than that..i just hope to hear some news from him once in a while=)

2009-04-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

im feeling hungry again tonight! last night de same thing happen as well.. my eating timing now adays very wrong lor..hungry at the wrong time!

i guess andrew is really out of my mind, cox someone else seems to be stepping in..or issit i think too much..

2009-04-21T23:56:00.000+08:00

i dunno how to phrase it..but a weird feeling starts to appear, a smile from my heart whenever i think about it..

2009-04-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

its de first day of my yr3! hahas..sch was rather boring today..sian lor.. my faci evrything all go by book de. luckily meet jess, kai ling and an for my break=) if nt my whole day would be SUPER BORING! end class at 4.15 den go jess class to find her and wait for an to end class..he's super slow! after tat we went to sakae for our dinner..we 3 gals chat for super dam long lor..its been quite some time since the 3 of us really sit down to chit chat le.. hahas..chat until 8 den go home.. hopefully my other 3 classes will be much more fun!

2009-04-20T01:51:00.000+08:00

gonna start a new sem in a few hours time!!! hahas..hopefully this sem i wun keep skipping class again=) LOL.. haven been slping well for the past few days, my eye bag getting from bad to worse le lor.. is not i dun wanna slp lah..but is cant fall asleep! keep waking up in the middle of the night! sian.. CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT HOLIDAY TO COME AGAIN=) hahahahas..

2009-04-15T16:30:00.000+08:00

14/4
went out to meet richson and his gf ytd afternoon for lunch and movie at PS, watch KNOWING..den cass came to join us after her school=) initially when cass wasnt ard, it was abit awkard cox i dun really know richson's gf and she's rather quiet lah! hahas..and even though cass came, we oso got nth much in common to do lor..so after dinner, richson and his gf went off to marina square..as for mi and cass, we went to catch another movie FAST AND FURIOUS.. lol. by the time we watch finish the show it was ard 9..den i went to meet my colleagues cox it was jason's bdae!! went to bugis to meet them for supper and cut cake..den they suggest to go cine watch THE SNIPER at 1.30am!!!! dun feel lyk going de..cox already watch 2 movie in a day le..but eventually stil give in..cox they keep persuading me to go=( keep yarwning when watching the movie lor..dam tired! ben drive mi home after movie..hahas by the time i reach home was already 3.30am den guess wat, there's a LIZARD IN MY BEDROOM!!!!! it keeps moving here and there lor, i tried to trap it in a cyontainer..but dun really dare..stare at the lizard for ard 1hr, thinking when will it leave my room..den cant be bothered and take my pillow and bolster to the living room to sleep instead=( hahas..when mummy wake up in the morning den ask her to go check the lizard in my bedroom..but she say it was gone already..den can safely go back to my room and have a gd sleep=) hahahhahas...
HORRIBLE, TERRIBLE LIZARDS WASTE MY SLEEPING TIME!!!!!

2009-04-14T00:29:00.000+08:00

so many thoughts run through my mind ytd after talking to andy..but when it comes to writing down, i dunno where to start from..maybe i shd be glad tat i left andrew at that point of time..at least in my memory its all mostly happy times..bcox ever since we broke up, so many things happen..he seems to have change to a complete different person.. time really helps to sort out my feelings, but its nt totally over yet...

2009-04-12T14:18:00.001+08:00

yeah..went to catch taken ytd night with jess, von, li, zo and xing hao=) hahas..the movie was nice!!! got some parts was quite scary den i keep grabbing zo's hand! hahas..poor hand..lol watch until ard 1.30am den we drive to marina there for the hong kong cafe..cox its 24hrs=) mi and xing hao park our car illegally at the double yellow line den when we were about to leave the traffic police come lor..den we ran to get our cars and move off=) heng ar..if not gonna kanna fine le..hehe. send the rest back home first den mi and xing hao drive home ourself..they live super far! hahas..but its okie since its only once in a while i'll do this=) nxt week only working on thus, fri and sun..

YAPING GONNA BE SO BROOOOKE!!!

2009-04-10T00:38:00.001+08:00

9/4
meet up with irene, jess, ting, von, an and zo for cycling today! and we went pulau ubin! was suppose to meet at 1pm at tanah merah..den i mistake tanah merah as tanjong pagar tat stop until when i was waiting for the train to come i went to look at the map den realise tat i got the 2 places WRONGLY!! hahas..tats y i was late and only reach there at 1.20, but jess, an and ting were even later! they reach ard 1.40.. poor irene reach on time so she got to wait for us=) hahas..

went to changi to have our lunch first b4 going to pulau ubin and by the time we reach there was already 3.30..the weather doesn look gd, but we stil continue to cycle until halfway through it started to rain! luckily, the rain is not very heavy and it stop after a while=) so it didn spoil out cycling trip afterall! haha.. we cycle to somewhere in pulau ubin to look at the species..and it really took us a tough time reaching there! cox the route there was dam difficult to cycle and most importantly, all of us have super many mosquite bites!!! except for von! she didn even have 1 mosquito bite at all! lucky her lor..really go there to feed mosquitoes! hahas..but its really fun to go there once in a while and all of us really sweat alot, the upslope is "POWERFUL" less den halfway through,most of us would automatically push the bicycle instead of cycling lor..dam tiring..but luckily, when there's upslope, there comes the downslope=) yeah! tats when we find our efforts pay off..cycle until 6.30 den take boat back=) took alot of photos there! especially when we came to a place where de scenery is really nice!! hahas.. so now, im super tired and shall go for my beauty sleep now! =)

2009-04-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

im not working for 1 more week!!! idiot roadshows=( sian..maybe its really time to find a new job for myself, if this continues.. hahas..so people, any other jobs to recommend? shall plan my schedule out for this week le..to keep myself entertain! if not i gonna be bored to death first!

2009-04-01T01:12:00.000+08:00

off for 1 whole week! dun have much fair=( today went out with andy and daniel in the afternoon.. we went to asian civilisations museum! LOLS.. andy's suggestion! hahas..he say he have been wanting to go for very long le..and tml onwards.. andy wun have so much off days le and daniel's sch gonna start..so dun tink have so much chance to go out with them lo=( and after tat went to cass hse, her grandma and ah song kor kor's bdae=) HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
have my schedule's all plan for this whole week! hahas.. wed gonna meet jolena out for shopping den teach tuition in the night.. thus gonna meet bea go walk walk..fri gonna go for some sch ting den meet my poly friends at night for steamboat and jessica gonna stayover at my hse until sun..so will be with her throughout! and lastly, sun shall be with my family=)

2009-03-28T02:06:00.000+08:00

since last mth, my sales have been super bad! all the people are trying to save money which results in not much ppl wanna buy things=( plus the stupid company price the products at such a high price den all the more ppl need to consider! haiz.. after work lata, gonna go club wid bea and stay over at her hse..den we shall go to work tgt on sun=)

how i wish i really had a bf now, someone who will be there whenever im bored, whenever i need smo to talk to, whenever i need a hug..
ytd, when i reach home after tuition, all of a sudden i wasnt really in a gd mood, i just felt so lonely.. i wanted to find smo out to keep mi company, but i couldnt tink of anyone.. cass is stil in the mids of recovering and furthermore her mum wun let her cum out so late.. cher is overseas..xia wun wanna cum out so late..jess live so far from me..and i didn want to always bother andy and daniel..
i want to have a bf, but its just so hard to find one.. and i am afraid to get the same hurt twice..
gotta slp le, stil got a long day today!

2009-03-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

off today and went out with daniel to watch movie, initially andy oso cuming along de..but he got to go HDB wid geraldine to settle some things first. so me and daniel thought tat he not gonna watch movie with us until when we were watching the movie halfway through den he msg and ask if we wanna meet him not. LOL he thought we gonna wait for him to watch movie.. haha.. we went to watch watchmen, 2hr40mins lah! but the movie not really nice lei.. after movie went to mustafa to meet alex, cox he working today.. had our dinner there and meet andy at sengkang there.. the 3 of us chit chat until 11+ lor..den by the time andy send me home was already 12.. haha, really enjoy meeting them up=)

recently, there's guy who work in city chain whom i knew him when i was working at compass roadshow last mth..den he give me his contact no and say tat if i wana buy watch he can help me get discount..den irene was looking for a watch for jason, so i contacted his guy name joe. after he got my contact, he start to msg me.. even came to parkway fair to find mi for dinner.. his send me msg more frequently which sometimes i dun really feel like replying.. so i didn reply his msg since last sat night until mon, where he have already sent me 5 msg.. but i didn wanna make our friendship turn awkward..so got no choice to reply him saying tat i stay over at my friends hse on sat night and left my phone there.. den he reply and say tat stay over at my bf hse issit.. so save all the trouble, i said yes.. and from then on, he didn msg me tat frequent anymore.. i guess its a gd ting for me huh, because im somehow irritated by his msg.. i okie with making friends, but when a guy dun really know me and keep msging when i didn reply his msg will only scare me off!

2009-03-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

I DUN LIKE MY NEW CLASS!!!
jux check my new class for the upcoming sem, and i dun like the new class.. most of the people whom i really get along with, i dun get to be in the same class as them and i am in different class everyday!.. sian lah! dunno which asshole plan this! tink i gonna mix up my classes for the first few weeks=(

cass got hospitalised ytd night.. cox she was having a terrible stomach pain, so her mum bring her to tan tock seng..den initially the doc thought it was appendictics, but after the scanning and blood test, they say its not appendictics, its inflamation at cleom( dunno the spelling) so doc say she got to be hospitalise for 2 days first den c how it goes..and she cant even eat anything the whole day lah.. only can drink abit of water=( my poor cass!

2009-03-22T00:04:00.000+08:00

19/3
off on tat day and went out with irene to pasir ris park..initially our plan is to go there blade and she gonna teach me but end up both of us went cycling instead! LOL.. haha, shall learn blade nxt time when there's someone who really knows how to blade and can hold on to me=) the most interesting ting is we cycle pass a place for horse riding and we went to buy the horse food and feed them.. haha, its a fun experience=) which i will upload the photo onto facebook when im free! went home to bath and jason came over to fetch us for dinner! he seems to be stress about his new job, hope things goes well for him! den i drive to fetch daniel and went to meet andy at his hse downstairs and eugene came over to meet us as well.. drive to a nearby coffeeshop to chit chat until almost 2am..

and for now, even though i still think about him everyday, but i no longer miss him as much as before.. i guess the feeling is fading away..

2009-03-19T01:42:00.000+08:00

gal, i know that many times u might feel that your hearing is affecting you and u just wanna be like any of us, but trust me, you are perfectly alright! and i know that my temper issnt that gd, so sometimes i get irritated easily over small matters like when you ask me to repeat myself.. so bear with me yeah! and sorry about it!
REMEMBER! YAPING NEVER FAILS TO LOVE YOU BABE=)

2009-03-19T01:19:00.000+08:00

my com breakdown, so wasnt able to go online for the past 1 week+! just meet up with daniel after work..he came to drive me out for supper! =) suppose to meet andy as well, but he's at mustafa, and by the time he call up, i've already reach home! LOLS. yeah, finally tml off=) and gonna meet up with irene for rollerblade..haha healthy exercise eh! i've got to learn how to rollerblade! it looks so cool to know to to blade lah..hahaha.. den maybe gonna meet up with weixian and william they all either tml night for fri.. didn c them for super dam long! de last time the group of us meet up was like 2 year+!!!

cher, faster cum back!!! den we can go shop, gossip, and club!!! =) and i can drive you out for supper just like the day before you left singapore!! hahahahas.. LOVES...

2009-03-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

today i serve a gal and i found her so familar that i thought she was a actress initially..den later on i ask if she is an actress not, den she say no, but her friend add on for her tat she was the slim fit ambassador..the one which says" hai shi zhao bu dao shi he de" she looks prettier in real life=) she also participates in other variety shows=) she even say wanna recommend me other part time jobs, say if im looking for one can give her a call..so sweet of her huh!

on the way back home, im totally exhausted! no energy to do anything else!

2009-03-06T23:56:00.000+08:00

no matter how hard i try to keep myself occupied, once im all alone, i just felt so empty.. i've never had this kind of feeling before until he left me.. the emptiness will never go away until i no longer miss him anymore, which will be when? its been 4mth+, but y couldn't i let go.. the feeling is really so horrible!

sometimes, when i saw couples around me, im so jealous at the same time also envy them..

2009-03-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

4/3

off today, so went to meet geraldine at city plaza and off we went for shopping=) bought a dress, top and leggings for $40..haha luckily got geraldine ard den can get it at wholesale price=) den we went to town to meet up with jess they all.. before jess reach town, when me and geraldine was shopping, got a guy stalk us lah! keep following us around den when he see us walk inside any shop, he would just put down his bag and wait for us lo..scary sia, tink the guy not in the right state of mind! haha. went to eat dinner with jess and her friends at waraku=) eat until super full lah.. den meet bea after her work at my hse and we drive out again=) but we got nowhere to go! wanna go watch movie, but the movie timing too late, wanna go eat prata but the stall not open! LOL. so reach home ard 1+..

5/3

YAPING IS FEELING SO BORED WITH HER LIFE!!!!

SO BORED SO BORED SO BORED!!!

i wanna have a bf who will love me, dotes on me and pamper me!

i wanna have all my friends around me and can meet up very often!

i wanna go back to china to meet up with my relatives there!

i wanna have more time for my family!

i wanna earn more money for my spendings!